the more you make, the more you spend.

it's ridiculous how much money i waste. i remember when i FINALLY graduated from high school i had to get to work. i had a job that paid 8 bucks an hour. it was amazing i wasn't making minimum wage. it was SO much money! i had my girlfriend at the time living with me at my parents house. the first check i got that was like, 400 bucks, was spent on all sorts of cool shit of us. i bought a nice coat for my ex, i bought a watch and some shoes. i eventually even bought a brand new car! a 2004 scion xB. i'll never forget that car. it was awesome. i was on top of the world.

fast forward a year, my girlfriend left me for the twelfth time. i get a new job. they said they were going to pay me 10 bucks an hour, and if i stick around, i'll get a nice 50 cent raise in a couple of months. so here i am now. 19 years old, and i'm so excited. i finally made it into the double digits! i had it made. i couldn't believe how much money they were paying me. it was the greatest thing ever. you can ask my wife now (which was one of my best friends at that time), i always had money. we would go out and party, and i would pay for everything. the shit was awesome. i always had money. when i would go rehearse with my band, i always had my own GREAT equipment. i would buy this stuff cash. it was going great! i even had a nice classic car. i had a 64 impala SS. after that, i even bought an old school mini cooper. it was awesome. after i crashed the impala, i bought a couple VW bugs. i would trade them like trading cards. i had the greatest time with my cars.

move ahead a couple more years. my ex-girlfriend is now pregnant, i get an even better job! now i make double of what i used to. it was good. it was great. i eventually quit work for a while. i didn't work from about october until january. i had money saved up for the whole time i was off.

i was single, i was a disaster, i was drunk, i was fun.

being fun, being, drunk, and being single is VERY expensive. i eventually ran out of money and it has been an uphill battle ever since. it's been about 3 years now and i'm STILL paying for it. can you believe that? i'm married now, i have 2 kids, and all this debt that doesn't let me do much. i have a new job that's even better than all of my other jobs. i make decent money now, but i'm too caught up in paying for my credit cards that i ran up years ago. maybe in another couple of years i'll be debt free, and everything will be good again.


i'll let you know when that day is. it's not on the horizon any time soon. when it comes, you'll be the first to know.

k. thx. bye.

jessie

i like carls jr.

thank the lord my son likes it too.

i'm doing a clean job in the middle for you.

forgive the wrestling term ridden title but, yeah.

i never wrote about 2008, which is something i always do. not always write about 2008 but, write about the year in a retrospect kind of deal. let's just say that this year was super interesting to say the least. i started out this year single, not working, drinking excessively, doing some recreational drugs, oh and not to mention, going to sleep super late, and waking up super late... a vampire type deal.

i met SO many interesting people this past year. it was pretty cool. i did a lot of stuff that i never thought i would be doing(not amazing things, just things that i thought were beneath me). i also knew at the start of the year that i wasnt ready to be in a relationship. lets just say, i broke a heart or 2(or at least i'd like to think so). the last thing on my mind was a "girlfriend". i met a broad while i was on ectasy, and i was smitten. im sure that drugs had a major influence in that but oh well, turns out, she sucked. so one day i was bothering my bestfriend steph about how i hate chicks and it's all over. when she decides to interupt my rant and start talking about us being together. it was weird, i mean i thought about it before, but it was just a thought in passing.

this is getting kind of long and there's still over things i want to talk about so i'll give you the short version from here.

we got married september 14th, 2008 at around 1:30-2:00am. it was awesome. you know, some people ask why we did that so fast and let me tell you. it just seems like such a natural progression for our relationship. its pretty cool too 'cuz i told her i'd always be around to watch her back, and now i've infiltrated the ranks and i get to make sure she's always good.

i think i'll save my europe stories for another blog. theyre cool and involve whores and deep throating dodger-dog type deals. (and thats only my side of the whole story!


have a lousy day!

jessie.

Only because I think everyone should read what I have to say.

here's the deal, i don't know what to write. i don't own my own "clothing line", i don't spend my time at clubs. while most people will say, "i like most kinds of music." i will say, "i hate most kinds of music."

ok, so maybe that's a lousy introduction. but at least i have a blog with a cool name (thanks vader!)

everyonce in a while i feel this overwhelming feeling of self-importance, i'll write stuff down. let's see how this goes.